Delusion

Reaching through the ethers, I take your hand

Searching for how to help you understand

I cringe when I see your limited view

From my perch I see the amazing you

Your running partner is false perception

Pushing you faster toward deception

Fueled with the idea of never enough

Struggling with this attachment makes it rough

Soon you’ll no longer be able to run

You’ll wish you’d slowed down and had way more fun

Your looks and money are an illusion

This carrot you seek is your delusion

As you step on the scale measuring your worth

I’m ready for the dam of tears to burst

With your hand in mine that your eyes can’t see

I console this younger version of me

                                        .....Myjo

Curvy Yoga: Take Two!

You know, when you feel that nagging and it won't go away?  That thing playing back in there in your mind that says, "this is what you need to do!"?  

Honestly, I got the training, tried teaching in California under the name "Curvy" and got nowhere.  Why?   Maybe my attitude.  I don't know.  So here I am again, in Arizona, putting myself out there.  

Today was the first day of class and a whopping ZERO showed up to take the class.  I looked over at the studio owner and suggested that maybe we change the class name.  She was adamant.  "NO!!  There is a need for this class and we just need to figure out how to reach out to those people!"  She's right.  Why should/would I give up so quickly?  

I'm ready.  I posted the class on the studio's site and registered on Curvy Yoga's site with my new location.  A very wise teacher once told me that I need to meditate and visualize what I want.  I followed his advice and my classes were amazing in California.  Why wouldn't the same advice work in Arizona?  Silly.  Of course! 

So, I'll leave you with this little snippet as I ask you to excuse me while I go into my meditation room.  

Jai! 

Meaningless

“Waiting here, as my life is meaningless,

For the pain to fade into nothingness

I’m saying good bye to those that I’ve loved

And those that loved me but never spoke up

“To those that found me as someone to use

You confirmed my self-worth through your abuse

Yes, I loved you but you never loved me,

It’s fine, neither do I, so we agree

“How could anyone see someone like me

And find them lovable beneath this grief?

They’re seeking perfection from the get-go

So my lovable side they’ll never know

“Since waiting’s the worst, I’ll skip to the end

My useless life concludes when I press ‘send’”

Sadness consumed me when I saw this note

A desperate plea someone close to me wrote

Since traveling time is a cool thing I do

I needed to help this someone I knew

Found that moment with her hand on the key

Sent a call to her phone coming from me

You picked up the phone and I never knew

A random call from me was what saved you

You’ve since been my best friend, my ride or die

I’m grateful for your call that saved my life

                                 Myjo

Less's Cave

Sitting with Less as I’m learning content

Quantity’s reduced when Quality’s sent

This sidekick of mine loved to explore

Places I’ve seen but never stopped before

This space of Less often made me feel scared

Others would enter but I never dared

She pulled me in before I could resist

This cave, I was sure, brought unhappiness

We looked at each other truly amazed

At all the rich beauty in Less’s cave

Without Quantity’s distractions, we saw

Quality displayed her beauty and awe

Less invited us to look all around

We marveled at this hidden jewel we found

We didn’t want to leave and asked to stay

Less nodded sending Attachment away

Beach Buzz

Sitting on the beach happy to be here

Just finished my run, my head is real clear

My family in the condo still asleep

So I relish this time that’s just for me

A young woman built a lot like I am

Jogs up and sits beside me in the sand

Says, “I’ve been running to catch up to you
You’re fast and don’t take much time to refuel

“I have some messages you need to hear!”

I wanted to laugh but lent her my ear

“Hard things are going to be coming your way

Practice your yoga to keep yourself sane

“Your kids, your home, everything you hold dear

Will be attacked as you face your worst fears

Just when you’re done, at the end of your rope

You’ll get an unexpected ray of hope.”

I turned to speak, she had vanished too soon

I left the sand and walked back to my room

Ten years have passed since that day on the beach

I now realize that woman was me

                                    .....Myjo

Heaven Bound

My journey’s arrived at the final gate

The gatekeeper declares, “You need to wait!”

I look around to see who else is near

I’m pretty sure I deserve to be here

I took a peek through the gate and beyond

Then turned and said, “No, this is where I belong!”

The light was welcoming like before noon

“Massages” on a big sign in a gold room

I saw through a window, horses grazing

A sign by the door, “For the Horse Crazy”

Another sign said, “Yoga teacher needed”

Where yogis were practicing deep breathing

A desk was waiting with the perfect light

For someone like me who would love to write

Two leashes by the door for the dogs

It’s their heaven, too, and they love their walks

The food on the tables just blew my mind

Wine and chocolate and cheese of every kind

Everything here is what heaven would seem

I was sure heaven was ready for me

The gatekeeper gently pried me away

“This is your someday but it’s not today

You hit your head when you fell off you chair

Your body’s still alive so go back there!”

                                       Myjo

Whiskey

Gliding around this beautiful sphere

Imagination navigates as my thoughts steer

Embracing the peace I feel all around

I’m suddenly prompted, “You MUST go down!”

I halt my thoughts and do an about face

Receive my assignment then zip through space

Arriving here at a tavern bar

Spirit telling me, “this is where it starts”

Spirit’s showing me a man that’s gone home

A grieving woman sitting here alone

Drinking whiskey to kill the pain inside

Dark souls waiting, hoping to hitch a ride

She stood up fast then passed out on the ground

The dark souls were gathering all around

The fractured light was her soul’s submission

I pushed them aside and then I rushed in

I wrapped her in light, her soul surrendered

I knew my purpose was to defend her

The dark souls retreated, then they soon left

I stayed with her soul while her body slept.


                                      .....Myjo