This
photograph’s never been taken
Nor has its
story ever been written
This
snapshot from here, observing below
While
co-creating of how it will go
She
approached me before she left here
With a
proposition for me to hear
“I need
help, I was directed to you
To help me
with something I need to do”
I watched
her, noticing her nervousness
Whatever
this is, it’s causing distress
I truly
adore this sister of mine
Our souls
have bonded throughout all of time
“What I’m
offering, for us, will be rough
You want to
know not feeling good enough
Your desired
challenge to overcome
Your life
could start as the discarded one
“You see, my
desire, to know heartbreak
Pressure to
give someone I love away
To be forced
to make a hard decision
Then free
myself from an anguished prison”
I’d already
perceived what she wanted
But part of
her journey was to say it
“In the
event I don’t turn this around,
Will you be
my daughter I adopt out?”
I’d worked
hard, my Earth-life was pre-designed
Her scenario
worked perfect with mine
I hugged my
sister, “Of course I’ll do this
I trust no
one else to give me this test”
I missed her
when it was her time to go
I watched
her navigate her life below
Everything
for my debut was aligned
A passionate
moment at the right time
As my body
was beginning to grow,
I visited
often to say, “Hello”
I held my
tormented mom in her dreams
While she
lamented about losing me
The time of
my body’s birth had arrived
I witnessed
it from my home in the light
She’s not
solidified her decision
My destiny
had unclear direction
She closed
her eyes, slipped into a deep sleep
Her sad soul
ventured out in search of me
I’d been out
doing my spiritual chores
When I saw
her arrive through Spirit’s door
I laughed
when she scolded me, “What the hell?
You’re
supposed to be in the hospital!”
“I find it
boring to be a baby,”
I said, “The
Spirit plane better suits me”
She shook
her head, trying to hide a smile
“Just know,
this is how you’ll know you’re my child
Your dreams
will show things before they happen
When
intuition speaks, you must listen
“As you
know, these are gifts I possess too
And to show
my love, I gift them to you”
I looked at
her, “Your decision’s been made
I know
you’ve already sent me away”
With no more
control, she burst into tears
“Your life
is starting, you shouldn’t be here”
I hugged
her, “We will always have this space
Promise me,
we’ll meet often in this place”
She nodded,
“Every year, on your birthday
Our souls
will connect in this special way”
I tearfully
hugged my sister good-bye
And
journeyed to earth to begin my life
Although it
has faded over the years,
This photo
reminds me of why I’m here
My life
provided opportunities
In
abundance, of my lacking for me
Life kicked
my ass and almost took me down
She came when
she was no longer around
She picked
me up, said, “You were there for me
Consider
this my opportunity
“Don’t you
ever forget where you came from
When I fell
apart, you stayed the strong one
Thinking
you’re not good enough is bull shit
You’re a
spirit goddess, so act like it”
This last
chapter is still being written
I’m working
hard to give it a great end
As I tuck
this photo back in my thoughts,
I’m grateful
for the memory it brought
Jody
Nelson
