Monday, September 11, 2017

Please Don't Leave

The day came when my hero had to leave
I ran and hugged him, “Daddy, don’t leave me!”
I knew, even then, that his heart was torn
But his course was set before he was born

Everything in all our lives changed that day
In retrospect, it had to be that way
With my childish comprehension of life
I was excited about dad’s new wife

Since Mom had to move many miles away
Visiting us filled his vacation days
Vacation’s sunset drew tears out of me
I’d sob my heart out, “Daddy, please don’t leave”

I remember, my new baby brother
And when I met my awesome step-mother
Our visits were filled with quality time
Memories woven through this life of mine

Our stocking boxes and poker with change
Taco night at the campsite “mama’s” way
He tucked us each in bed when the day’s through
He’d sing to me, “Dream while you’re feeling blue”

My graduation summer, I received
A gift I’ll treasure for eternity
I came to California, to my dad’s
The greatest vacation I could have had

I’d never been in Daddy’s habitat
So it took a bit to get used to that
My little brother, about four or five
Was more fun than I’d before realized

On the way home, when my visit was through
I taught my brother how to tie his shoes
A rite of passage, to show I belong
I learned the California drinking song

My dad’s retired, my brother’s in school
Daddy, not one to follow all the rules
“Why are you requesting your son’s release?”
“The crappie are running, we need to leave!”

Since my teenage job was being reckless,
I moved down with Dad to escape my mess
My hero shared his home and family
Sacrificing their peaceful life for me

There was something I’d not before noticed
Daddy’s charm that nobody could resist
He taught me, “Say kind words as you pass through
Above all others, they’ll remember you”

When fairness seemed to pass over his plate
He spoke words of love and never of hate
He taught me of karma, like what that meant
What I receive reflects that which I sent

Life moved along, my babies, his grand kids
Daddy joined us on our annual trips
His jokes like, “How Long is a China man”
He kept them guessing, me, his greatest fan

When someone had me shaking my head,
My dad would say, “S/he’s young and foolish yet”
(That last quote you need to say with your mouth
To understand what I’m talking about)

One trip my daughter brought her friend that’s hot
We’re all walking across a parking lot
I said to him, “Daddy, are you okay?”
I’ll never forget what he had to say

“I was feeling pretty tired before
But now I’m feeling energized once more
With Michelle walking in front of me
I seem to have a lot more energy!”

As years progressed and Daddy’s health declined
I witnessed the dawning of Spirit’s light
It would take many years for me to see
Long before I did, he believed in me

I sat by his bed, would silently plead
Hoping he’d hear me, “Daddy, please don’t leave”
Mama assured me his time wasn’t yet
“I believe and want you to believe it!”

I did, he stayed with us several more years
With still more for him to accomplish here
He taught me more about the soul’s journey
And helped me analyze what I believe

I’m in that moment I’ve feared all my life
When Daddy’s soul has returned to the light
Every little piece of me wants to scream
Gripped in anguish, “Daddy, why did you leave?”

I sit at my table, begin to write
Without warning, Dad’s hand is guiding mine
He’s nurturing my soul with love and peace
And a calm assurance that he won’t leave

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

Thoughts

I was sitting here in contemplation
On this mountain top’s high elevation
Consumed in a thought path that was my own
No clue, at all, that I wasn’t alone

His thoughts startled me from my reverie
Who is this soul I hadn’t before seen?
His thoughts seemed to be all over the place
With a look of frustration on his face

I watched him in quiet observation
I saw the root of his agitation
He was visiting this spiritual sphere
And had no idea how he got here

Spirit places me where I need to be
I could see what was being asked of me
I approached him, “I’m here to assist you
To help you understand what you can do”

My soul chuckled when he spoke with his mouth
“How I arrived here, I can’t figure out
I want to return to my busy life
I keep searching, but there’s no car to drive!”

Damn, I love it when Spirit entrusts me
This is going to be great fun, indeed
“First of all,” I said, “we speak with our thoughts
When you quiet your mouth, you’ll hear a lot”

He, then, looked at me incredulously
“I hear what you’re saying, how can this be?”
I said, “Now you try giving it a shot
Project your next message with just your thoughts”

His eyes closed, I heard, “Can you hear me now?”
I replied in kind, “I can!  Clear and loud!”
I told him, “When we interact this way
With any soul, you can communicate”

His next inquiry was a car to drive
I said, “Why would drive when you can fly?”
His eyes bugged out in complete disbelief
“I see your suggestion, no way, not me!


“When I jump from here, I’ll fall to my death
This is some trickery, on that I’ll bet”
“To earn your complete trust will take some time
You’re influenced by your logical mind

“To show Spirit’s boundless limitation
I’m here to give you a demonstration”
I stood tall, leaned forward, let myself fall
And was flying with no effort at all

Although I had no ambition to stop
I made my way back to the mountain top
He was amazed, “Holy shit!  You can fly!”
I replied, “Yes, now it’s your turn to try!”

I must be convincing, he stood up tall
With little coaxing, he let himself fall
His open mouth let out terrified screams
The physical world could hear through his dreams

I swooped in close, “You’ve got nothing to fear”
He looked over at me, “Thank God you’re here
Please stay beside me to keep me in flight
I can’t do this alone, I’m terrified!”

I moved in front, to his line of vision
To show, between us, there’s no connection
“This is all you, baby, you’re rocking it!”
Astonished, all he said was, “Holy shit!”

He started to relax, began to play
Following earth’s road grids to navigate
I let him travel, for a bit, like this
Before teaching him Spirit’s GPS

Watching him struggle, I said, finally,
“There’s a way to travel efficiently
That lands you quickly on your target spot
You’ll move more easily using your thoughts”

He stopped himself short, “What is this you say?
Is everything here powered in this way?”
It took me a few beats to understand
Then I remembered the logic of man

I stopped and hovered, “Okay, here’s the deal
You already know what I’ll now reveal
Earth is Spirit’s physical creation
Simply a spirit world replication

“Man, over time, has become arrogant
Forgetting the tool, with which we were sent
I won’t lie, your thoughts, friend, are everything
All things revolved around the way you think

I laughed, “Come with me, let’s experiment
We’ll see if we go where your thoughts are sent”
We arrived at his home, I knew we would
Beside his bed, watching him sleep, we stood

He thought, “How is this even possible?
I’m right here, yet there’s my body’s double”
“Again, I’m repeating what you know well
Your body, simply put, is your soul’s shell”

The time had come for his soul to return
As his waking body twisted and turned
He opened his eyes, “What a crazy dream!”
Unaware that he’s still staring at me

Friday, August 18, 2017

Everything

This dilapidated road just went on
Any hope for relief seemed to be gone
The ugly landscape with the blackened trees
Conveyed messages of despair to me

I keep going on, there had to be more
Like a gambler hoping for a big score
But the road, this darkness, kept taunting me,
“This is all there is, you’ll never be free!”

Is that a mirage I see up ahead?
I dare to allow my hope to be fed
A freshly paved road with landscape that’s lush
Just imagining this gives me a rush

I’ve been awarded with an awesome win
The road of darkness has come to an end
As I drive onto the pavement that’s smooth,
I’m rubbernecking at this gorgeous view

The forest, thick with foliage and trees
I roll down the window to smell the breeze
There’s mountains ahead, the ocean beyond
But right here, right now, is where I belong

I covered the mirror, not looking back
Gone from me, is the memory of that
My focus is neither looking ahead
I’m captivated by what’s here instead

I pull off the road, a trail beckons me
And hike to a lake surrounded by trees
I sit by the water’s edge, take it in
To feel this euphoric, must be a sin

I hike through trails the animals have made
With no clue how long, in this place, I’ve stayed
When Spirit signaled it was time to leave
I thanked the forest for nurturing me

I returned to the road, not driving far
The urge to stop made my excitement start
“Where am I going?” I wanted to know
“Could there be more magic you want to show?”

Again, I was led through the forest’s trail
I wanted to absorb every detail
The fragrance, the breeze, this cool mountain air
If heaven is on earth, I’m sure I’m there

I heard it up ahead, that rushing sound
I moved my feet quickly across the ground
And then, pure majesty came into view
Just stand there, awestruck, was all I could do

Water cascading from a ledge up high
Nothing could have prepared me for this sight
The pool, below, gently held out her hand
Offering space for the water to land

Though I felt so sure, I know it’s not real,
They paused, regarded me, like, “What’s her deal?”
Then, permission to approach, I presumed
When their most sacred ritual resumed

I did so with absolute reverence
This, I was sure, is Spirit’s residence
To demonstrate my respect, I disrobed
Vulnerability made itself known

I bow to Source, in complete submission
Prepared to receive my soul’s baptism
The ice-cold water takes my breath away
I want to retreat, but Spirit says, “Stay”

Slowly, my body is able to move
Gradually easing into a groove
Diving down deep in water, crystal clear
Never, have I imagined being here

I keep swimming, I’ve abandoned restraint
Responsibility has been detained
My exhausted body swims to a rock
Closing my eyes, I peacefully drift off

I know there’s so much beauty to explore
I’m content, now, I don’t need anymore
I don’t know what the next moment will bring
Here, in this moment, I have everything

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

In the Meadow

The meadow beckoned me to come over
And linger in her carpet of flowers
I obliged, laid my tired body down
Barely aware of anything around

The midday sun was lighting up the sky
Then there’s nothingness as I close my eyes
My next awareness, everything is dark,
A babbling brook and a coyote’s bark

I close my eyes overwhelmed by fatigue
Allowing more sleep to overtake me
My next awareness, with no dream recall
Morning was overtaking the night fall

My body shifted as the world awoke
But Morpheus called me from her abode
That bright sun, again, pried my eyes awake
But tired me has had all she can take

I play by the rules, I beat myself up
No matter what I give, it’s not enough
I’m tired, I can’t do it anymore
I surrender my soul, here at death’s door

But wait, who is this I see emerging?
A random new energy that’s surging
Her light surrounds me, “I’ll take it from here”
She says, “go rest, you’ve got nothing to fear”

Tired me obliges, no resistance
And fades to a space of non-existence
Real me emerges, yawning and stretching
Alive with wonder while the sun’s setting

The crickets chirping and the babbling brook
I rise and venture out to take a look
Little cottontails scamper from my feet
In the distance, curious eyes on me

My senses are heightened, I feel alive
Everything, right here, feels perfectly right
I stay the night, watch the rising sun
Content with myself, don’t need anyone

I have no desire to wander back
To that world where tired me was attacked
Since she’s tucked away in oblivion
I’m sure this is how new me can begin

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Here at the Crossroad

I’m slowly making my way down the street
Riding shotgun, the wisest part of me
I notice the portal, wide open
Beckoning me to come venture on in

Like I often do, I start to sit back
Why risk all this for an uncertain that?
Though I have dreams of a pretty great life
Fear of failure blinds me with its bright light

My wise high self is speaking real low
“Through that portal is where you want to go
The unknown, though scary, can be a thrill
You’ll never know if you choose to stay still

“Look over here at this slate that is clean
The cursor waiting to write out your dream
There are many awaiting your debut
They know you’ll deliver, you always do”

I stand at this crossroad, looking both ways
Do I go for it or just play it safe?
Then Spirit opens a vision to me
Of how each pathway could possibly be

Off to my left, I’m carrying a lot
Assuming, without this, I would be lost
But I’m not as strong as I used to be
A stranger comes and takes the load from me

Assuming they’re kind, giving assistance
I’m grateful and offer no resistance
In no time, I understand what I’ve lost
Everything’s gone while my soul pays the cost

To my right, a beautiful gypsy trail
I let myself absorb all this entails
There’s nothing to carry, everything’s here
Paved with colorful threads of peace and cheer

My physical self sees this as chaos
Structure, schedules and rules are found here not
Then I realize this appeals to me
This nomadic place, where I want to be

My wise self says, “Choose the way you will go
Be firm in your choice, since you can’t have both”
I feel my soul smile as I close my eyes
My decision made, I turn to the right

Monday, July 31, 2017

Far Away

I was hiking and didn’t realize
I was walking amongst a sea of eyes
My intention to keep myself grounded
Was contrary to what Spirit wanted

Little by little I became aware
That there were souls around me everywhere
I had no walls, that was perfectly clear
And all of my thoughts, I know they could hear

I saw him start to materialize
His familiar image before my eyes
He’s walking toward me as our lights embrace
All time between our worlds just melts away

We’ve ventured throughout many lives before
Both of us guiding souls through Spirit’s door
His world is in another universe
Like the one we worked together in first

He said, “Please come on a journey with me
There’s someplace beautiful for you to see”
I closed my eyes and surrendered my trust
And straight away felt myself lifting up

Up through space, leaving the planet of blue
No measure of time or space we went through
We arrived in a place, there are no words
To describe the majesty of this world

Colors beyond what my world’s ever seen
With creatures and plants peculiar to me
He lingered there while I took it all in
For bringing me here, I’m grateful to him

He chuckled, “Well, this isn’t a free ride
After all, we are both Spirit’s gate guides
Two souls here are ready to transition
We’re the chosen guides to usher them in”

We went to the place, two souls hand in hand
I turned to my pal, “I don’t understand
They appear happy and healthy to me
No incident forthcoming, that I see”

He smiled at the narrowness of my view
“Your earth world has certainly messed with you
In a world where there’s peace and harmony
Souls decide when they are ready to leave”

I felt so much I needed to relearn
But memory was starting to return
When souls are resting from lifetimes in school,
They can spend time in these worlds, if they choose

What my mortal mind was struggling to see
Why any soul would leave this world of peace
Then images were playing in my mind
Souls returning to work, leave this behind

He looked at me, took my hand, “Well, shall we?
I believe these two souls are now ready”
I nodded, then marveled at what took place
Their bodies on the ground, lying in wait

There’s no fear, just absolute surrender
As my pal guided him, I guided her
When their souls had fully merged with our light
I was caught off-guard at this awesome sight

I know these souls!  The four of us are tight
I hug them, this surprise is out of sight!
Spirit gives permission for us to stay
To fill our souls in this celestial place

Since I’m the one who lives on planet Earth,
The toughest school in any universe,
They offer comfort, riding back with me
As I return to that reality

I feel myself choke up, begin to cry
Embracing their lights as we say good-bye
Back in my world, beginning a new day
Walking, I feel my friends aren’t far away

Monday, June 26, 2017

Jump the Line

I’m waiting at the gate, traveling home
Lost deep in my thoughts and sitting alone
He came and sat in the seat next to mine
Then whispered, “Please help me, I’ve jumped the line!”

At first, I was in shock, wanted to yell
Assisting a crime will land me in jail
“Whatever you’ve done, please don’t involve me
I don’t want that responsibility”

When I had calmed, he started to explain
“I’m from a time much ahead of your day
I jumped the line on a curious whim
A friend was traveling, so I went with him

“The host he chose got into a big jam
They departed earth-life and here I am
This host I’m with has allowed me to speak
I was told, by others, you could help me”

Okay, not at all what I expected
Nor a task, at this moment, I wanted
“This place I come from, you already know
He said, “I’m acquainted with your friend, Vloe”

This gift of time travel, apparently,
It is uncommon and fairly unique
My friend was the one that made me aware
That we could travel between here and there

Vloe visits me from a much future time
And observes my world from deep in my mind
She reciprocates when I visit her
Fascinated by their world, that’s for sure

He said Vloe and him could communicate
They speak through thoughts, so I figured that way
He asked if there was a quieter room
So that I could allow Vloe to come through

“That’s not a problem, she’s already here”
Then I softened back so she could be clear
Our eyes were closed as my shoulder touched his
Apparently, it works better like this

They began their chatter with fast visuals
All over the place, nothing sequential
Then they arrived at a great solution
And sought approval from my direction

I gave it, I’m nervous, I will not lie
With two souls on board that have jumped the line
I stayed in the background, make myself breathe
Knowing Vloe would never try to hurt me

Quickly, the man gets up and walks away
Vloe and the line jumper begin to fade
I looked up, panicked, thought I missed my flight
And saw only five minutes had gone by