When This Was Now

Though it’s calm, I sense a storm approaching

I’m in a meadow, the sun is shining

My long blonde hair is blowing in the breeze

I’m happy, I’m young, completely carefree

In this flowing dress, I feel beautiful

And, this time around, I’m also grateful

There’s a stream of water, not very deep

Ambling through this meadow that’s lush and green

How I’m back in this moment, I can’t say

Here, I’d not known I’d remember this day

Now that I’ve returned, I’m savoring it

For, flawed as I am, I’m also perfect

I’m innocent, untouched by life’s lessons

Which was only seen when this became then

I watch the stream merge into another

I follow its journey to the river

I’m alone but sense a presence near me

Which, when this was now, I’m sure I’d not seen

I’m tempted to berate my ignorance

But that would dull this moment’s radiance

Something’s happening that hadn’t before

There’s mud flowing as though during a storm

I’m watching the water rapidly rise

Then look up, there’s not a cloud in the sky

Slowly, I’m beginning to understand

I rise and scurry, seeking higher land

But high, I soon see, isn’t high enough

I’m running, but running uphill is tough

As I feel the water on my bare feet,

I’m frightened I’ll soon be facing defeat

I’m hearing his soft voice calling my name

Telling me to trust and not be afraid

“You don’t have power to outrun this storm

For this one’s unlike those you’ve seen before

Surrender and just allow it to pass

For where you’ll soon be, it already has”