Sunday, March 18, 2018

Normal

I stopped, pretended I am who I am
For right now, I don’t adhere to the plan
No schedule, no expectations to meet
Nothing demanding anything of me

What would I truly desire to do
If I left my life, completely withdrew?
What if fear of judgement wasn’t a thing?
Would it alter the way I am living?

What of fear of failure, does that play in?
What if that concept, too, came to an end?
What if there is hidden strength inside me
That I’ve ignored, opting for what’s easy?

I felt Spirit’s nudging, “Go on, explore
The true you should no longer be ignored”
There’s a sudden surge of motivation
In continuing this exploration

So, which desires are hard-wired in
And which have been programmed expectations?
Are they my expectations or another’s
Or my perception that they’re another’s

Each segment of my life I examine
I see I’ve abandoned me to fit in
To the point where I’m completely unsure
What’s me?  What’s not?  The lines have been blurred

I feel Spirit sensing I’m overwhelmed
“Quiet, with patience, your truth will be found
It took your lifetime to make you this way
Change will require more than one day

“To unveil who it is you truly are,
Looking behind you is not where you start
And the path ahead has no guarantees
Where you begin, is in this breath you breathe

“What you’re doing, right now, does it bring joy
Or are you resentful, angry, annoyed?
Examine your emotions, how you feel
Anything, but joy, keeps your truth concealed

“Though you’re all one, each soul has uniqueness
Which only means normal doesn’t exist
The concept of normal is ignorance
And pushes everything out of balance

“There’s illustrations of this everywhere
Control strengthens when concepts are shared
Nutrition, medicine, education
And what to believe through religion

“Know, at first, you’ll be met with resistance
But don’t give in, maintain your persistence
‘Let your freak flag fly high,’ the saying goes
Where you honor your truth, happiness flows

                                      Jody Nelson