Sunday, June 3, 2018

End Before End


I had come for him, but she saw me first
Annoyed at myself, I audibly cursed
She said, “What in the hell are you doing
Sneaking around our home while we’re sleeping?”

I pointed to her form, still deep asleep
“Because you’re very evolved, you see me
I’m a gate guide, but I’ve not come for you
It’s his time and I’ve come to guide him through”

She looked at her partner then back at me
“I know that is true, but I’m not ready
I don’t know if I know what I should do
With the challenge I’m about to go through”

I smiled, gathered her in a deep embrace
Then whispered, “You’ll grow with what you’ll soon face
Though you likely won’t recall what you see
Let your feelings calm your anxiety

“Now, quiet yourself, move deeper inside
While I take you on a spiritual ride”
I waited, holding this high vibration
Rejoiced, when she reached this elevation

A much wiser version of her appeared
The same one that, before there, had lived here
She recognized me, our lights intertwined
We lingered for a period of time

She pulled back, “I know my life is written
And complete revelation is forbidden,
But I’m sure I left a loophole or two
To see a hint of what I’ll soon go through”

I acknowledged she understood it right
It’s why, I now see, we’re here in the light
I’ve never assisted a life preview
But Spirit said, “This is what you must do”

She waited, knowing her recollection
Would appear an encoded edition
I revised the thought I whispered before,
“Let how you feel be your indicator”

I showed an old friend she’s known a long time
Wanting to help and be part of her life
To his dismay, she ventures out, alone
Wanting, needing to do this on her own

Navigating through unexpected grief,
Comprehending this new reality
Becomes an incredible weight to bear
But she must push forward, move on from there

She learns to seek guidance, which way to go
Venturing, bravely, into the unknown
She’ll arrive in places she’s known before
They’ll invite her to visit them once more

Ah, but this time, she’ll have much wiser eyes
See other options she’s not realized
When her journey leads her back to her friend,
She realizes her choice was always him

I watched her light as I closed the preview
She turned toward me with sadness, “Thank you
I’ve seen my life is about to suck ass
But later, I find happiness at last

“This feeling I have, please let me retain
To help me stay strong when my belief wanes”
I replied, “Here’s what I’ll promise to you
It will wait, write it down to refer to”

She understood then said she was ready
To return, next to him, in her body
As we approached, we noticed something strange
Her partner had just witnessed our exchange

There was nothing but love, that he conveyed
As he, too, saw the preview as it played
“Without me, you’ll be allowed to strengthen
Then you’re potential will start flooding in”

There was a sweetness as they said good-bye
Before his transition into the light
He said, “For this life we’ve shared, I thank you
Everything strengthened me that we went through”

This next part, for me, has always been hard
Telling them it was time for them to part
The three of us shifted into her dream
She remained while he departed with me

She watched us as we faded out of sight
Though heartbroken now, she would be alright
She woke from her sleep, his body was dead
Crying, she tried to recall what we’d said

                                            Jody Nelson