For right
now, I don’t adhere to the plan
No schedule,
no expectations to meet
Nothing
demanding anything of me
What would I
truly desire to do
If I left my
life, completely withdrew?
What if fear
of judgement wasn’t a thing?
Would it
alter the way I am living?
What of fear
of failure, does that play in?
What if that
concept, too, came to an end?
What if
there is hidden strength inside me
That I’ve
ignored, opting for what’s easy?
I felt
Spirit’s nudging, “Go on, explore
The true you
should no longer be ignored”
There’s a
sudden surge of motivation
In continuing
this exploration
So, which
desires are hard-wired in
And which
have been programmed expectations?
Are they my
expectations or another’s
Or my perception
that they’re another’s
Each segment
of my life I examine
I see I’ve
abandoned me to fit in
To the point
where I’m completely unsure
What’s
me? What’s not? The lines have been blurred
I feel Spirit
sensing I’m overwhelmed
“Quiet, with
patience, your truth will be found
It took your
lifetime to make you this way
Change will
require more than one day
“To unveil
who it is you truly are,
Looking behind
you is not where you start
And the path
ahead has no guarantees
Where you begin,
is in this breath you breathe
“What you’re
doing, right now, does it bring joy
Or are you
resentful, angry, annoyed?
Examine your
emotions, how you feel
Anything, but
joy, keeps your truth concealed
“Though you’re
all one, each soul has uniqueness
Which only
means normal doesn’t exist
The concept
of normal is ignorance
And pushes
everything out of balance
“There’s
illustrations of this everywhere
Control strengthens
when concepts are shared
Nutrition,
medicine, education
And what to
believe through religion
“Know, at
first, you’ll be met with resistance
But don’t
give in, maintain your persistence
‘Let your
freak flag fly high,’ the saying goes
Where you
honor your truth, happiness flows
Jody Nelson
