When This Was Now

Though it’s calm, I sense a storm approaching

I’m in a meadow, the sun is shining

My long blonde hair is blowing in the breeze

I’m happy, I’m young, completely carefree

In this flowing dress, I feel beautiful

And, this time around, I’m also grateful

There’s a stream of water, not very deep

Ambling through this meadow that’s lush and green

How I’m back in this moment, I can’t say

Here, I’d not known I’d remember this day

Now that I’ve returned, I’m savoring it

For, flawed as I am, I’m also perfect

I’m innocent, untouched by life’s lessons

Which was only seen when this became then

I watch the stream merge into another

I follow its journey to the river

I’m alone but sense a presence near me

Which, when this was now, I’m sure I’d not seen

I’m tempted to berate my ignorance

But that would dull this moment’s radiance

Something’s happening that hadn’t before

There’s mud flowing as though during a storm

I’m watching the water rapidly rise

Then look up, there’s not a cloud in the sky

Slowly, I’m beginning to understand

I rise and scurry, seeking higher land

But high, I soon see, isn’t high enough

I’m running, but running uphill is tough

As I feel the water on my bare feet,

I’m frightened I’ll soon be facing defeat

I’m hearing his soft voice calling my name

Telling me to trust and not be afraid

“You don’t have power to outrun this storm

For this one’s unlike those you’ve seen before

Surrender and just allow it to pass

For where you’ll soon be, it already has”

In-Between

Stuck in a hopeless situation

She’s calling for help between dimensions

How she arrived there, I’m starting to see

As a vision starts opening to me

She’s in a forest, which is no surprise

For that’s typically where vortexes hide

Obviously, she’s not been there before

For if she had, she’d know what was in store

This uncertain place, called the in-between

Where many unsuspecting souls have seen

Can feel dark and desperate, lacking all hope

Void of the vibrance of life they had known

Since it’s me who hears her desperate pleas

I’m aware this assignment is for me

Realizing I have no other choice,

I allow my mind to follow her voice

I’m observing her, though she’s unaware

As my form has not manifested here

For what Spirit is conveying to me

One must surrender before they can see

Though my soul is yearning to rescue her,

I can see, with that, no growth can occur

The storms roll through, denial then anger

Finally, softening to surrender

At first, I’m just a voice in her mind’s ear

One she’s not certain she believes she hears

Persistence is how I stay in this game

As she believes, then believes she’s insane

Then, each time she believes, she believes more

Soon, there won’t be disbelief anymore

At which time the darkness will fade

Replaced by light in this in-between space

Eventually, the door will open

Where she can enter a new dimension

A place where she will finally be free

And be the goddess she’s destined to be

                                             Jody Nelson

Coyote Cave

I begin today like most other days

And head out on a hike to meditate

Coyotes block my path, “You can’t pass here

We’ve been told to send you hiking down there”

I followed their gaze pointing to the wash

“Go that way, if hiking is still your wish”

I wanted to argue, but what’s the use,

They’re just doing what they’ve been told to do

I stepped into the wash, annoyed as hell

Having a pity party for myself

About then, a flash of light caught my eye

And I quickly snapped my gaze to the right

The oddest sensation came over me

As I wandered that way impulsively

Somehow, I felt that I’ve been here before

And pushed through the thick brush to explore

When I saw it, it stirred a memory

But to my recollection, that can’t be

It’s a cave with tunnels beneath the earth

I enter without fear of getting hurt

It feels I’ve done this a gazillion times

I cruise through the dark, not needing my eyes

My legs move along as though they’re possessed

Forcing my ego to take a recess

“Let go of what makes sense and just allow”

I heard scampering through my thoughts somehow

From right here, seeing no other option,

I succumbed to my imagination

First, what I noticeably realized

Though it makes no sense, I’m seeing more light

It feels comforting, like a warm blanket

All aspects of my soul are drawn to it

Something else started occurring to me

Either I’m deaf or there’s absolute peace

The noise of my world I’m accustomed to

Has been magically, somehow put on mute

Just like my eyes, my ears start to adjust

I hear nature’s music through the forest

In this peace, I start hearing something else

Thoughts in my mind I’m not thinking myself

I’m told I’m tuned into their frequency

Which had me thinking, “Well, that’s rude of me”

I hear them laughing then say, “No, you’re fine

You’ve tuned into us because we’re your tribe”

I moved through places I’ve seen in my dreams

Which made me think, “Shit, maybe I’m asleep”

Just then I got an odd confirmation

“This and your dreams are the same vibration”

Everything was here, including the wall

A reminder of my world’s brutal fall

An event that is still yet to take place

Where my world goes through the destruction phase

And it’s a big deal, the slate is wiped clean

To build something new, that’s what needs to be

I step into my role within this tribe,

Allowing my intuition to guide

A lesson, lately that’s begun to sprout,

I now realize what it’s all about

Each soul’s gifts are uniquely customized

Drawn from various sources through their lives

I sense my programming unraveling

For what’s not possible is happening

And this parallel dimension I’m in

Feels as though I’ve been welcomed home again

Days to weeks to months, they were flying by

Something kept calling me from my old life

I acknowledge my nirvana is here

So why I’m called to return isn’t clear

I cruise the tunnels in automation

As though I’m returning from vacation

It’s been so long; they must presume I’m dead

And how that plays out churns through my head

The cave’s opening comes will within view

I feel a sudden shift as I step through

A familiar chime grabs my attention

I guess my cell phone just got reception

Nervously, I begin to draw my phone

“Shit, how long has it been since I’ve been home?”

My thoughts were spinning in all directions

Trying to conjure an explanation

A text from my best friend and then nothing else

Nobody’s tried to find me?  What the hell!

I press for the date, how long has it been?

And realize my phone must be broken

Just inside the cave, my phone must have quit

In there, I was oblivious to it

Needing a discreet way to verify,

I google for the current day and time

With what shows up, I couldn’t help but gasp

To my best guess, just minutes had elapsed

I turned to the cave, the entrance is gone

As a thought stirs, “It’s time to move along”

                                                            Jody Nelson