Everything

This dilapidated road just went on

Any hope for relief seemed to be gone

The ugly landscape with the blackened trees

Conveyed messages of despair to me

I keep going on, there had to be more

Like a gambler hoping for a big score

But the road, this darkness, kept taunting me,

“This is all there is, you’ll never be free!”

Is that a mirage I see up ahead?

I dare to allow my hope to be fed

A freshly paved road with landscape that’s lush

Just imagining this gives me a rush

I’ve been awarded with an awesome win

The road of darkness has come to an end

As I drive onto the pavement that’s smooth,

I’m rubbernecking at this gorgeous view

The forest, thick with foliage and trees

I roll down the window to smell the breeze

There’s mountains ahead, the ocean beyond

But right here, right now, is where I belong

I covered the mirror, not looking back

Gone from me, is the memory of that

My focus is neither looking ahead

I’m captivated by what’s here instead

I pull off the road, a trail beckons me

And hike to a lake surrounded by trees

I sit by the water’s edge, take it in

To feel this euphoric, must be a sin

I hike through trails the animals have made

With no clue how long, in this place, I’ve stayed

When Spirit signaled it was time to leave

I thanked the forest for nurturing me

I returned to the road, not driving far

The urge to stop made my excitement start

“Where am I going?” I wanted to know

“Could there be more magic you want to show?”

Again, I was led through the forest’s trail

I wanted to absorb every detail

The fragrance, the breeze, this cool mountain air

If heaven is on earth, I’m sure I’m there

I heard it up ahead, that rushing sound

I moved my feet quickly across the ground

And then, pure majesty came into view

Just stand there, awestruck, was all I could do

Water cascading from a ledge up high

Nothing could have prepared me for this sight

The pool, below, gently held out her hand

Offering space for the water to land

Though I felt so sure, I know it’s not real,

They paused, regarded me, like, “What’s her deal?”

Then, permission to approach, I presumed

When their most sacred ritual resumed

I did so with absolute reverence

This, I was sure, is Spirit’s residence

To demonstrate my respect, I disrobed

Vulnerability made itself known

I bow to Source, in complete submission

Prepared to receive my soul’s baptism

The ice-cold water takes my breath away

I want to retreat, but Spirit says, “Stay”

Slowly, my body is able to move

Gradually easing into a groove

Diving down deep in water, crystal clear

Never, have I imagined being here

I keep swimming, I’ve abandoned restraint

Responsibility has been detained

My exhausted body swims to a rock

Closing my eyes, I peacefully drift off

I know there’s so much beauty to explore

I’m content, now, I don’t need anymore

I don’t know what the next moment will bring

Here, in this moment, I have everything

In the Meadow

The meadow beckoned me to come over

And linger in her carpet of flowers

I obliged, laid my tired body down

Barely aware of anything around

The midday sun was lighting up the sky

Then there’s nothingness as I close my eyes

My next awareness, everything is dark,

A babbling brook and a coyote’s bark

I close my eyes overwhelmed by fatigue

Allowing more sleep to overtake me

My next awareness, with no dream recall

Morning was overtaking the night fall

My body shifted as the world awoke

But Morpheus called me from her abode

That bright sun, again, pried my eyes awake

But tired me has had all she can take

I play by the rules, I beat myself up

No matter what I give, it’s not enough

I’m tired, I can’t do it anymore

I surrender my soul, here at death’s door

But wait, who is this I see emerging?

A random new energy that’s surging

Her light surrounds me, “I’ll take it from here”

She says, “go rest, you’ve got nothing to fear”

Tired me obliges, no resistance

And fades to a space of non-existence

Real me emerges, yawning and stretching

Alive with wonder while the sun’s setting

The crickets chirping and the babbling brook

I rise and venture out to take a look

Little cottontails scamper from my feet

In the distance, curious eyes on me

My senses are heightened, I feel alive

Everything, right here, feels perfectly right

I stay the night, watch the rising sun

Content with myself, don’t need anyone

I have no desire to wander back

To that world where tired me was attacked

Since she’s tucked away in oblivion

I’m sure this is how new me can begin

Here at the Crossroad

I’m slowly making my way down the street

Riding shotgun, the wisest part of me

I notice the portal, wide open

Beckoning me to come venture on in

Like I often do, I start to sit back

Why risk all this for an uncertain that?

Though I have dreams of a pretty great life

Fear of failure blinds me with its bright light

My wise high self is speaking real low

“Through that portal is where you want to go

The unknown, though scary, can be a thrill

You’ll never know if you choose to stay still

“Look over here at this slate that is clean

The cursor waiting to write out your dream

There are many awaiting your debut

They know you’ll deliver, you always do”

I stand at this crossroad, looking both ways

Do I go for it or just play it safe?

Then Spirit opens a vision to me

Of how each pathway could possibly be

Off to my left, I’m carrying a lot

Assuming, without this, I would be lost

But I’m not as strong as I used to be

A stranger comes and takes the load from me

Assuming they’re kind, giving assistance

I’m grateful and offer no resistance

In no time, I understand what I’ve lost

Everything’s gone while my soul pays the cost

To my right, a beautiful gypsy trail

I let myself absorb all this entails

There’s nothing to carry, everything’s here

Paved with colorful threads of peace and cheer

My physical self sees this as chaos

Structure, schedules and rules are found here not

Then I realize this appeals to me

This nomadic place, where I want to be

My wise self says, “Choose the way you will go

Be firm in your choice, since you can’t have both”

I feel my soul smile as I close my eyes

My decision made, I turn to the right